Fear…stress…worry…anxiety…all hit me at once this morning at 4:30AM. I woke up scared…worried that HELP is going to fail, that WHNF is going to flop, that my kids are going to hate me because I sold our home to live in a two bedroom apartment, so we can continue running HELP.
Yesterday, I kept hearing this voice in my soul, and I did not know why!
Chris…I want you to give up more…your still holding on to the American Dream, your security is still connected to works and not faith. You’re not letting go!
Over, and over, I kept hearing that, it was bothering me. See, I want to be secure…Jesus wants me to live on faith…I want to be stable…Jesus is calling me to the globe…I want to be safe…Jesus is calling to risk my life for “the least of these.”
My response: But Jesus, I’m already broke, scared and overwhelmed with my current workload…enough is enough…right?
I guess not…There’s more I need to give up, let go, and trust God. I’m convinced Jesus is on a relentless pursuit to shape and mold His people to live a “normal” Christian life…and by normal, I really mean insane, scary, faith-driven life that we all want and crave, but we’re to scared to let go of the very thing we hate – The American Dream. Yet, it’s the very thing that Jesus’ desires us to do!
You are brave and a stud.